hand cramp

So I actually worked today. I was told it was for the whole day but when I arrived they informed me that they would only need my for half a day. The work itself sucked but in a way I'm glad that I got to go home early. I spent four hours writing addresses on envelopes for $10 an hour. By the end I had a hand cramp... hence the title :)

I know the work was boring and useless and I know I only made $40 today, but it has renewed my self confidence in a way that nothing else could. It has given me hope for the future. Who knows how long it will last, but for now I'm just going to enjoy my new found sense of hope and happiness.

I find myself spending free time looking up latin proverbs. Strange eh? I had a dream/vision/feeling that my next tattoo should be a latin saying of some kind on my left arm. It doesn't mean I'm going to go out and get one, but I can do the leg work just in case (famous last words of a true addict). My favourite one so far is the one that Angelina Jolie has (and no it's not only because it's on her)... Quod Me Nutrit Me Destruit... what nourishes me also destroys me. Out of everything I've read it has the most meaning for me. It speaks to me of balance, addiction and self-destruction... the very things I struggle with everyday, but that would just be weird. So how does that work? If you like something that someone famous has done already does that take away your right to do it to? Will people think you did it simply for that reason or will they be able to look beyond the surface? Does it hold less meaning or more?

I wonder if I can get a tattoo with $40??

** laughs **